theWABASHproject: Lesson 1: How to Doula a Dream

I had a dream…

So you know how folks say “ I had a dream…to sail around the world, to become a ballerina, a sports star, a musician, to go to Disneyland?” Well, I actually had a dream, the kind we have while drooling on a pillow. It was to shift my whole life. It was a calling. It was going to lead me to a place I never thought I would be. But let’s not get ahead of ourselves here. It’s important to set the context. What was whirling about in that drooling head before it hit the pillow?

In 2019 I was pretty miserable in Seattle. The city had become over-run by developers mining gold by tearing down anything interesting and building office towers and cheap faux modern town-homes to house all the tech money migrating to our little fishing village. It had happened before. Microsoft in the 90’s. The first tech bubble in ‘03. I can’t complain too much as my own boat was rising with the tsunami of tech money. I was mostly designing tech office space. Mostly for those little companies still yet to go public, but hoping to do so with a sparkly new office with massive cafes with kegerators, ping pong tables, secret rooms and robot coffee makers, very fun to design, but my first love will always be art. And art spaces were the first to go along with low priced apartments. All my favorite hang outs, galleries, venues, and more importantly my friends were being pushed out to the very edges. With the people came the cars, not more transit options. Getting from the CD to Ballard could be 2 hours or a $150 Lyft ride. Getting anywhere was a nightmare.

And then came March 2020. Covid blind-sided us all. I remember ordering toilet paper and tomatoes online thinking I want a different life when we come out the other side of this Global Pandemic. Since the 2016 election I had immersed myself in sacred teachings of Thich Nhat Hanh, Joseph Campbel, Hafiz, Lao Tsu, Quakerism to buffer myself from the blindness and greed and unkindnesses those years seem to flame. I was searching for a way to be part of the healing, instead of othering and perpetuating suffering.

Now back to the dream…

…a very potent dream. In this dream a friend gave me a beat up old storefront packed to the ceiling with broken furniture and bric-a-brac. After clearing it out, I created a refuge and a home; a space for creativity, meditation and for tending what needed tending. Visitors traded white stones for the things they needed. I awoke in the middle of the night and in half wakefulness named it theWABASHproject

The next morning I told my husband about the dream. And though I grew up in Indiana living and playing in the woods and the creeks on the Wabash river’s banks, when he read what Wikipedia had to say about the name, I was delightfully surprised.

“The name "Wabash" is an English spelling of the French name for the river, "Ouabache". French traders named the river after the Miami-Illinois word for the river, waapaahšiiki, meaning pure water over white stones.”

The white stones are referring to the place where the clear river water ran over bright expanses of limestone. We humans are like rivers, our “banks” or bodies always shifting and changing, but we are always moving, returning, flowing back to Mother Ocean.

But how did this all happen in tiny PNW Mount Vernon?

The dream, fueled by that Covid promise of change, became my calling. I began talking about it to anyone who would listen. Two people who listened were Christian and Trina Carlson (owners of Perry and Carlson), our friends who had relocated to MV, who we would visit every time we drove through MV on our way to the ferry. Christian suggested I reach out to the owners of a deconstructed and derelict building just south of Perry and Carlson. The owners had wisely surmised that this building was a money pit and had abandoned a renovation about 5% of the way into it. Christian suggested we reach out to see if they would sell it. I ignored the “money pit” part of the equation and only saw the dream fully realized in a small town where I could walk everywhere for my basic needs. The Co-op was 2 minute walk away, the train and bus station was 5 minutes, the hospital was 15 minutes. No car? No problem.

But there was one problem. We could not do this alone. We finally found folks with the similar dreams, desires and delusions. It seemed every time we thought it would die the universe kept saying yes. I knew it was going to be hard. I had NO idea how hard. In some ways my frail scared self wished it would go away. Something would kill the deal, but no. Universe says “you are chosen to Doula this dream”.

We all thought it was a 1-1/2 year project…and the universe laughed. It took almost 4 years. And emptied all the bank accounts. But now that we are in, I believe it to be worth every tear, bruise, fear, frustration. As theWABASHproject and Dorothea Coffee builds community we know we didn’t just do it for ourselves. We did it for a tiny town in the far left corner of a country that desperately needs community and the sanctuary of common good.

So if someone asked me how does one doula a dream? 1. Be resilient- every day is going to bring new challenges. Birth is messy and painful. 2. Be on guard - change is raw and all your buttons will be pushed 3. Focus on the creative forces bringing light - not the darkness of doubt and fear 4. Enjoy that ride - new life is exciting 4. Get the hell out of the way - watch out for your ego making it all about you.

Was that what I did? Hell, no. I blundered and bungled through it. I lay face down in a dark small apartment and cried like a 2 year old. I think I even kicked my feet into the floor. All the pain came from my own desires, assumptions, agendas about perfection, timing, cost, personalities, outcome. All the joy came from accepting that it WAS happening and being grateful that I was chosen to be a witness to it. If not me, someone else would have been the lucky one. So at my very best moments I felt and feel privileged and blessed and beloved. And lucky, lucky, lucky.

two not so young dreamers checking out that little river town, it was a slippery slope…August 2020

ignorance is truly bliss..proud owners of 512 South First street, Dec 2020

raw space never felt so, well, raw Dec 2020

This one? I bought this one? Are you sure? Sept 2021

Oh, yeh, we needed a lot more concrete than what was there Sept 2021

pretty new brickwork made it a solid little building Jan 2022

Occupancy Permit acheived…still not in the gallery yet, but home! Aug 2023

and a nice home it is. Gallery finally open December 2023

Cinco de Mayo 2025

The Divining Deck

After my morning practice of meditating and reading beautiful books by my mentors (Campbell, Hafiz, Lao Tsu, Agnes Martin, Thich Nhat Hanh, Tolle, Bell), I make drawings that reflect the reading I am ingesting. I am trying to visualize some of the concepts of No-thing and No-mind and time not being linear. I mean, come on, these are tough nuggets. I guess that is why Lao Tsu says one cannot know, one can only be. But drawings are a way to get at things around the fuzzy periphery of words.

I keep a journal as well during my morning ritual. I track ideas and concepts in quotes, but more importantly in my own words. Please do read the authors I have mentioned. They are the masters, I am merely a pupil.


Also at the beginning of the development of my morning practice, I used a beautiful art card deck called Moon Angels by Ryan Rebekah Eren (Sweat & Tears Press, 2014) , full of affirmations and gorgeous drawings. I would pull a card at random and ponder how this might relate to my studies or any other issue that was occupying my monkey mind. It was fun and the abstract artwork was beautiful to meditate upon. So I decided to make a deck with my own drawings and writings hoping to ease some suffering during these seemingly apocalyptic times.

I hope these bring you joy, peace, at the very least, a smile.

Here is the first one from a deck of 33 cards. Soon coming out analogue in book and card deck form. Stay tuned!

T1_it will pass image.jpg

T.01 IT WILL PASS

Consider all the events
that hastened to occur
for this moment to be
curious, messy or pure.

Is it pain or pleasure?
Is it dull or profound?
Is it what you desired?
Tell me what you have found.

A painful dullness?
It’s OK
it won’t last.

A profound pleasure?
Enjoy it fully
for it too will pass

(next time you have an itch, don’t scratch it. See what happens)

unintendeds

The great benefits of having a dog is the amount of time I now spend outside walking in my neighborhood. Over the past 7 years, I have begun to enjoy the mess of graffiti hidden in lost corners rarely passed by. I call these images the "unintendeds". The true intention was to mark and claim territory; to speak to a tribe of which I am not a part. But although not intended for me, they do speak to me in color and texture and form and therefore, beauty.

habitats: the work of christine chaney (part 1)

Here is the first installation from a book about my design work that I published through the online publisher Blurb. I have divided the book into five parts. Here is Part 1: Introduction, Intent & Inspiration. Upcoming will be Part 2: Wabi Sabi. Part 3: Space & Layering. Part 4: Theme/Variation & Structure. Part 5: Suspension & Movement. I hope you find inspiration and a brightened perception of habitation. http://www.blurb.com/b/4004839-habitats. Please enjoy.

lythe marking

So now that I am over 50, I realize how important it is to be concise; simplifying so I can experience all that is IN my life. I want to be able to touch all corners without exhaustion.  One concept I would like to incorporate into my life is the idea of "lythe marking"; limited effort for maximum effect. Here is a little Chaney Chat I created to illuminate this concept.

WabiSabi

Wabi sabi, an illusive term derived from Japanese aesthetics. Loosely it refers to the inherent beauty in the humble, the worn, the impermanent, the mercurial nature of our ever-changing material world. I have always been drawn to things expressive of use, wear, history. This faded, blurred, worn and even broken quality has a lushness I appreciate on a visceral level. It binds me to my humanness. It’s brushstrokes are irregular and painterly; it’s voice cracked and breathless. It makes me appreciate my “aliveness” within it’s decay.